In March I had my exhibition of the drawings that I was creating daily throughout 2022, having a collection of 365 of them – each showing my life from the inside, with an internal lens of reality. I never thought of these drawings as a commitment; it became an inalienable part of me and almost a natural night routine that I do not yet wish to abandon.
In the last couple of hours of the exhibition I was walking around the space that was full of the drawings – all of which surprisingly fit in my backpack – and, for the first time, I stayed alone with them and a carefully selected playlist as a background. It was then when I suddenly realized how tight is our connection, that the drawings or the portraits I had were not merely artistic pieces but my whole life and a diary. We have grown so much into each other that it is troublesome to look at them ‘from the outside’. As a result, it forced me to face – no matter how deceitful at times they were – my own thoughts, actions or feelings; because if they are depicted in the drawings – at a certain moment they were a part of me, and, therefore, were true. It is a huge step to self-acceptance by seeing your life on paper, with its ups and downs, love or fear, serene happiness or anxiety.
Having this exhibition was an important experience, with every person bringing new insights or observations to my own works and life. I am grateful for every small talk or every deep conversation I had, for emotions it could have caused for others, and for every person who took the time to come by, let it be from a 5 minute cycle or from Luxembourg, – or those who came back with friends. I am so grateful for those who helped me prepare the space of the exhibition – who gave an idea, helped attach the works, or who supported me and brought inspiration in my most fascinating journey called life.
And I keep going.
March — after the complexity of watercolor February, I stay simple: ink and a few lines. How to reduce your day to the essence, to show it with a few touches of your brush, and to put all your heart into it? March is then the answer.
